in rainbows

A decade after Ok Computer, four years after hail to the thief, Radiohead is back with In Rainbows. Well aside from the idea that you can set your own price when you buy it online, the album is just undeniably good. Radiohead never sounded like any other bands on the planet. They should be hailed as the gods of all rock&roll.

a much needed break

School has been terribly insane in the past month that I couldn't insert blogging in my sched. Lack of rest and sleep just adds to my irritation making me even more cranky and moody. So as an escape from that long draining semester.. party in embassy for real! Yes, we do have the chance to go out at least once in a while. With events now sneaking left and right, I need to ditch some invites.

Clubbing in Embassy. The usual sem ender party, most faces from school were there. The student council hosted the night and it was an open bar as long as your system could afford another bottle of alcohol. So was it a great night? I can't tell. I ditched it.

Maybe I was just exhausted from the faces I frequently see in school. I need a break from that crowd. I just stayed home that saturday night like a good little boy... well almost. A couple of friends, a few bottle of beers and an uber cheap buffet nearby and we had a great night. We started pounding beers at 2-ish and I stopped drinking after half an hour. I was already tipsy after finishing a single bottle. WTF?!

Before, I always get drunk as shit. We finish bottles in impressive record of time. I can go for hours hitting beers, vodka and more beers. I usually get drunk as hell and end the night at someone else's place. What was up to me these days? After a bottle and so, I just couldn't. Not even a trace of alcohol on my breath. It seems like my system is already denying alcohol.

Well anyway, I got home and passed out from exhaustion (well I talked and laughed a lot that night). Maybe it's not just the crowd that I was craving a break from. I usually abused my system with shameful amount of alcohol. Maybe my system is now asking a break likewise.

smile like you mean it

People have different goals. Several give up their passion once they hit college. I entered college not really knowing what I really want to do in my life. Why passion and career are sometimes so conflicting? I’m a year away from graduating, but I still doubt if I am on the course where I should be. Am I on the path to stability?

I know architecture can be so difficult and demanding but I took it thinking that it’s the way to live in today's world. Honestly, I didn't really know what I wanted. I just planned to have a college degree and have a decent job soon. I hit college and until now I never had that feeling of total certainty that I’m on the right path.

The other day was one of the moments when you’d feel like you're a little lesser. Sympathy is constantly alien to some people. Just because they’re in this position they can act like an almighty god of everything.

As an escape from that long downing-day, I indulged in photography. My friends and I spoiled ourselves in taking photos. We walked around clutching our tripods and SLR’s. After an hour or so we just sat still. After a few minutes of silence, we were like “that was fun..”. I hope to enjoy the rest of my life doing that much fun while earning good. "Should we quit architecture?".. then we laughed.

Honestly, I'm somewhat serious in considering dropping all those four years of it. I don't have a concrete back-up plan though. I’m scared of what my mom would think or say. She has expectations and that’s what I fear most. I chose this course and I should be responsible enough for this. But I’m not one of those people who are willing to tighten their belts just to be able to reach these expectations.

People have different roles to play. I think my role in the society is still unwritten. When we were college-sophomores, a couple from my class dropped out and chose a different course. I call them the intrepid explorers. So how many people are brave enough to follow their passion? .. their dream? I envy those people. They have figured a way to enjoy life they wanted. But what exactly do I want? Perhaps i should better discover before I throw everything away trying to find it.